Overjoyed

Yesterday was a very busy day for me. Also, one of those days I am thinking of going back home. It's mom's birthday yesterday. I sent her beautiful flowers which i hope brought tears into her eyes. But investing on even a huge bouquet of flowers would not even replace the joy of my mom when I am with her. :( Hearing their voices on the telly added more tears into my eyes. Lola even told me what she had prepared for mom. kare kare. barbeque. pancit. lumpiang shanghai. grilled eggplant. all of which are my top favorites. I even heard loud voices of my cousins and godchildren playing around. made me think they're once again happy to see each other in our mini reunion which happens every weekend. fight na! i even heard my uncles and other tong its playmates. i know that in anytime, someone would shout and say he wins, and gets all the pot.

i cried. i cried hard. i miss a lot of things just because i wanted a beautiful career. i terribly miss the food. even if i roam around the big country of china, i wont be able to taste the best dishes that lola always prepare especially on occasions like this. Not only food do i terribly miss. I miss most my family, my loved ones, even the things that we used to do. i know they have an empty chair on our tong its table reserved for me. I know also that the other microphone is also reserved once i get back home. they told me videoke will never be the same without me. i pray that days would drag much faster. and i'd be in the loving arms of my family and loved ones again...

TOP 3's:

1. Though i was a lil bit down due to my absense on mom's bday, i treated myself to kung fu. was really good food. never thought i'd be loving soymilk in my entire life.

2. When we pass by Mcdonald's, i saw their happy meal! and it's the most lovable and the i-wanna-die-for-it THE DOG! so i got myself 2 happy meals which i am eating for breakfast now. :)

3. We watched the sassy girl on DVD. I cried so hard. "it's building the bridge of chance for your love..."

"of all the moms in the world, i'd still definitely choose you!
Sheng ri kuai le, mommy!
from your daughter across the miles... i love you so much!"

Bitter-SWEET

gusto ko pa din isiping ako si earla_baby... at mananatili akong si earla_baby hanggang sa pag uwi ko. naalarma akong bigla. nakausap ko yung isa sa mga kakaunti kong kalapit na kaibigan kagabi. "nagmamature" na daw ako. sabi pa ng iba kong kasamahan dito, baka daw mawala na ang mga ngiti ko (na walang patumangging palaging nasa mukha ko araw araw..) paglipas ng panahon na pamamalagi ko dito sa lupaing ito. wag naman sana.

sa dami ng problema ng mundo at sa dami ng mga taong nakabusangot ng dahil sa di mapasan na mga problema, naisip kong bigla, dadagdag pa ba ko?

nahaharap na naman ako sa isa sa mga takot ko. kaya ayaw kong tumanda. ayaw magmature. lahat kasi ng matatanda, nakabusangot na. gusto ko, kahit matanda na ko, at wala ng mga ngipin, maaaliw pa din ang mga apo ko sa pagsilay nila ng matatamis kong mga ngiti. kewl.

gusto kong ngumiti. gusto kong tumawa. kahit madalas, umiiyak ako ng hindi nila alam. ang hirap tanggapin, na oo, tumatanda na nga ako.

at ito na ang mundo sa harap ko.

at ako na mismo ang nagpapagalaw sa sarili kong mundo.

at sa ganito ko inihahalintulad ang buhay ko. sa salitang "bitter-sweet." sa mga panahong di mabilang bilang ang mapapait na karanasan. pero panu mo nga naman malalasahan ang matamis kung hindi mo maikukumpara sa mapait?

hay buhay.

Minsan Bitter.

Minsan Sweet.

Bittersweet.

One Month. And a lot more to miss.

Two days from now and i am exactly one month surviving in a foreign land, not even once in my life i thought i'd go to. Because with the enthusiasm of embracing other different err, unique cultures, i was able to get by. but it wasn't easy as that. leaving home was such an enormous choice to make. since day one i was born, i was exposed to a land i never seem to appreciate. philippines for me then was just a, say, "a so-so country" and a "so-so society." but day one i landed in this foreign land, i started to whisper that "hey, the philippines is "an A-okay country and society!" I was able to love my country more than ever before. and miss it more and more each day... sigh.

Can anybody send me, sinigang na baboy, kare-kare, tuyo, green mangoes with bagoong, my loved ones, my bingo and my casino, my starbucks, and my most loved telenovela "sa piling mo" here in china? by then i can probably say i can be okay here. :(

Plagiarism

Merriam-Webster Online Dictionary

plagiarism

1 : an act or instance of plagiarizing
2 : something plagiarized

plagiarize
Function: verb
transitive senses : to steal and pass off (the ideas or words of another) as one's own : use (another's production) without crediting the source
intransitive senses : to commit literary theft : present as new and original an idea or product derived from an existing source

Copying or adopting the literary, musical, or artistic composition or work of another and publishing or producing it as one's own original composition or work.

The dictionary defines plagiarism as the act of "...stealing and using the ideas, writings, or inventions of another as one's own" or ".... taking passages, plots, or ideas from another and using them as one's own".

Ang plagiarism sa makatuwid ay isang uri ng pagnanakaw. At sana alam mo, mahal kong tagabasa, na ang blog kong ito ay naisulat ng dahil sa aking sariling damdamin at nadarama. hindi mo ito maaaring kuhain at ang angkinin na para bang sa iyo. masarap basahin. alam ko. pero sana, nababatid mo kung hanggang saan lang ang hangganan mo. at ito ay hanggang sa pagbabasa at pagbibigay ng opinyon, sang ayon ka man o hindi. at sana igalang mo ang karapatan ko sa bagay na ito. maraming salamat.

Sabi ni God

Sabi ni God... wala daw nakukuha sa mga madaliang paraan.. lahat kailangan paghirapan at ikompromiso. ewan ko ba bakit ako andito ngayon. at bakit sa isang iglap na lang, nagbago ang buhay ko. minamadali ata ng Diyos eh. marami syang planong pilit ipinagsisiksikan sa maikli kong buhay.

Antagal ko ng nananalangin. pero sa panahong ito, ito na yata ang pinakamalaking kasagutan sa lahat ng kahilingan ko.... at ang sabi ni God, "Anak eto, magtiis ka muna..." Hindi niya inabot agad ang hinihiling ko, bagkus binigyan niya ako ng mabilis ngunit mahirap na paraan sa pagtamo ng mga kahilingan ko.

Marahil salamat lang ang tanging mabibigkas ko. Pero kalakip ng salamat ang malaking bakit... "Kaya ko na ba God?" Siguro. kahit ako, hindi makakasagot sa ngayon. patuloy akong nagpapaagos sa direksyong ang Diyos lang ang may alam. Malakas pa din ang paniniwala ko. At patuloy akong magtitiwala hanggang sa makamit ko ang kahilingang malugod na ipapaubaya sa akin...

Kasi sabi ni God, "Kaya mo yan, anak..."

One Purpose. One Direction.

Nais kong i-share ang isa sa mga dahilan ng pag-alis ko. Magpapakamatay talaga ako makuha lang ito. agad agad. nice noh? sarap mag-early retirement. :)

The secret of moving on...

Dear my ever-so-constant reader,

It has been a loong while since I last updated my blog. A lot of things has happened--good and bad--all bundled up, comin' one after the other for quite a while. I was able to withstand the storm. And here I am, seeing the way out of the dark tunnel, I still have my god with me.

I've been very patient with everything--with time and circumstances, I must say. I learned to be strong and still run so fast even if I am all wounded.

God is so good. I always tell him, "kaw talaga, lagi ka na lang nananadya.." Everything happens for a purpose. Amazing. Especially how he turns out a bad weather into a very nice day, may rainbow pa. naks.

I never thought I would be able to use this as a title in one of my blogs. One of my favorite songs say, "the secret of moving on, is travelling light..." In any perspective you may see it, my dear reader, yes, I am definitely moving on. I was able to grab a few good things in my past but still, I am moving on. I started to put my life into a better perspective.

And now, I know it was a really tough decision to make. I am leaving for China very soon. Leaving family, friends, my graduate studies, and a career here in the Philippines made me sigh. But what the heck, I'd still come back. I believe that a better opportunity waits for me there as of the moment.

Well. people do come and go. things come and go too. its a fact that we all know. it's up to us if we choose to come back or reminisce all the good things that happened to us in the past.

one good advice to live by:
the secret of moving on, is really travelling light.

...because for me a traveller with a heavy heart never reaches his destination easily.

and i am ready to move on... :)