Wednesday, January 15, 2014

Best Gift

What's the best gift you've ever given to someone? Or the best gift you've given to your partner on the first month of your forever?

Well, aside from love, it can be a couple artwork you've painstakingly done, or poetry written with intense emotions. Or both.

That is priceless.

Unang Buwan ng Walang Hanggan

Paano binibigkas ang mga nag-aalab na damdamin?
Paano iindayog sa tugtog ng mapagpalayang pag-ibig?
Paano tiniptipon ang alaalang dala ng bawat umaga?
Paano lalapatan ng himig ang titik na binibigkas ng mga labi?

Tinitipon ang sariling binasag ng kahapon
Inaalam ang mga pangarap na minsan itinapon
Kumakapit sa kakarampot na pag-asa
Na minsang binuwal ng alaala

Bawat araw ay may masidhing paanyaya
Bawat gabi ay may kaakibat na pag-aasam
Na makasama ka
Na makapiling ka

Sa bawat salitang sinasambit
At mga titik na sa tingin lang kumakapit

Sa bawat hakbang
At pagtakbong walang pakialam

Sa bawat ngiti
At bawat hikbi

Hindi kailanman mailalapat sa salita
Ang dala ng simbuyo ng gunita

Sabay tayong gumuhit ng larawan ng bukas
Hulmahin ang bawat pangarap
Maghabi ng hindi malilimutang karanasan
Ikaw at ako hanggang kailanman

Kay tagal kong naghintay
Kaakibat ng poot ng nakaraan
Wari'y hindi ininda ang hapo at pagal
Ngayo'y narito ka na, sinta
Wala na akong hahanapin pa

Wednesday, January 1, 2014

Adieu, 2013

I woke up today with a different kind of happiness. Others may say, it's just another day in another year. But it IS another day, and that puts a gleam in my heart.

2013 has been a memorable year for me. It has been a mentor in insurmountable ways, the paradoxical teacher of learning the best and the worst.

Fragments of events of the year passed came through my mind while I was having my coffee this morning. 2013 has tested my discernment on situations, my physical strength, my ability to love, my capability to endure.

The first quarter of the year brought me to so much questioning in life, in love, in relationships, in my purpose. I was not living the moment as I have become anxious of the past and worrier of the future.

There were major turn of events that has happened in the past year -- failed relationship, test of friendships, loss of self-purpose. Nevertheless, I am thankful that all these brought me to the path to enlightenment and self-gratification. All these have brought me to a realization, that in spite of my heart being broken, it will never get tired of loving and bringing back the zest for life I've always had.

The last quarter of the year was by far, the most memorable. I woke up one day with a certain purpose in life. I began to realize that people will always come and go, and there are people, like true friends, who will choose to stay no matter how incorrigible your battles are. I brought back my confidence. I can stare at the mirror again, and say "I am beautiful." I am beautiful not only because I attract the good things life has continuously offering, but also because, out of billions of people in this world, there is one soul who saw what is really beautiful in me. Finally, I have realized that families will always be that pillar you'll always come back to lean on to. They make all the pain a lot bearable just by thinking they are always there. And, they make your everyday victories more rewarding and fulfilling.

2013 has brought me so much battle scars. And here I am, ever so thankful that I have endured. Whatever the year has made of me, it definitely molded me into the beautiful person that I am now. I can't wait for better things to come.

Adieu, 2013.
Hello, 2014. I am ready.